Log in

No account? Create an account
Charles Robinson's Journal [entries|friends|calendar]
Charles Robinson

[ website | Disclaimer ]
[ userinfo | livejournal userinfo ]
[ calendar | livejournal calendar ]

I'm easily convinced ... [14 Jun 2004|10:18pm]
[ mood | tired ]

Or I should say that Nora is very convincing when she's bribing me to update my journal. *grins*

I was so thankful to get home from the tour last week, I think I spent most of Wednesday sleeping off the jet-lag and exhaustion. Unfortunately it didn't end up being the best of tours, what with the negative fan reaction and publicity to Layfield's stunt. He can claim all he like that he was just playing the "heel" role, but there's still a line and he crossed it.

It was nice just getting to spend a few quiet days at home with Nora and Jessica, I had really missed both of my girls. I'm glad we've had the last of the long separations for a while, and we're back to our normal schedule. Well, as normal as it gets for us anyway. *laughs*

Speaking of schedules, they're obviously keeping Nora and I apart again right now. She's in Ohio for Raw tonight, while I worked a house show in Illinois. I miss her terribly whenever she's not with me, but I know she's heading to Chicago first thing in the morning, and then Wednesday we get to head back home again. *smiles*

Not everything has been all smiles since getting back though. Jessica has been so good about me being away so much, I guess in a way I almost forgot how hard it must be for her sometimes. But as I put her to bed on Thursday night, she started crying. And when I asked her what was wrong, she said that she didn't want her daddy to leave her again. Seeing my daughter upset like that, and knowing that my actions were what caused it, it tore out my heart. And the next day when I had to leave, she tried to be strong and said she understood, but I know how much it was hurting, how much it still hurts her now. And I know I have to do anything I can to try and take away that pain, because seeing her upset is more than I can bear.

I'm sorry, I didn't intend for this entry to take such a turn. *sighs* I think I just need to go and take a shower and try and get some sleep.

Nora, I love you.

3 comments|comment on this

Very quick update ... [25 May 2004|03:49pm]
[ mood | awake ]

... as I have a sexy diva to go snuggle with and take advantage of for at least another hour or so. *grins*

Nora is headed off tonight with the rest of the Raw roster to Ireland, so she's here with me in Milwaukee so we could spend as many hours together as possible before she has to leave, and I have to head to the arena for the tapings tonight. Then no sooner than she gets back, I'll be headed off to Germany and Italy with the Smackdown crew. So it's going to be a hard couple of weeks, that's for sure. I'm going to miss her like crazy.

But as she said, the one positive thing with us being away separately is that one of us can be at home with Jessica, rather than her being without us both for a longer period of time.

And right now the desire to update is being far outweighed by the desire to go and cuddle up to my beautiful girl while I still can, so I am going to go and do just that. *smiles*

1 comment|comment on this

Just checking in to say ... [21 May 2004|01:55pm]
[ mood | content ]

Happy Birthday rabid_wolverine. Hope you have a fantastic day, Chris.

And now I'm going to find Nora and drag her off somewhere for a late lunch. *smiles*

comment on this

Okay ... [18 May 2004|06:13am]
[ mood | content ]

I am updating. Nora, you can stop pouting at me about it now. *laughs*

Judgement Day was certainly eventful. It started out quite nicely, getting to referee the Divas match between Torrie and Dawn. Yeah it's a hard job, but someone's gotta do it. *grins* And then it was back in action a while later for the Cruiserweight match. I'm not quite sure why I'm being called on to referee two matches each show now, but hey, I'm not complaining at all. It's what I love to do.

I even snuck in a third appearance running down during the main event after Brian got taken out. Though I only lasted a grand total of a minute before getting my ass knocked right out of the ring. But I got some tender loving care from Nora later that evening, which made me feel all better. *winks*

Speaking of Nora, I'm just going to take another moment here to express what a special woman she is, and how truly lucky I feel to be sharing my life with her. We're living together, travelling together when our schedules allow it, and things just couldn't be better. I am happier and more content than I have ever been before in my life. *smiles* I love you, Nora.

And a sleepy voice just murmured that I am supposed to be in bed cuddling her right now, so I am going to go and do just that.

2 comments|comment on this

Well ... [01 May 2004|06:42am]
[ mood | happy ]

... the bribe must have worked, because I'm updating. Yes it seems that my significant other can be very convincing when she wants to be. *grins*

Nora and I arrived home on Wednesday, and made the most of having the house to ourselves that first night, and most of Thursday too. *winks* Then we waited for Jessica to get home from school, and the three of us sat down to watch Smackdown together. And both my girls were happy because I was indeed refereeing two matches again. Can't get enough of me apparently. *laughs*

I can't even begin to put into words how wonderful it felt having Nora there for those few days, and knowing that it wasn't just a visit, that she's really going to be there all the time. We're living together, and I truly couldn't be happier. I've got the love of an incredible woman, and I swear I fall in love with her a little more as each day passes. She's amazing. And I am a very lucky man. *smiles*

We're both in Texas at the moment, I joined her for her house show last night. But in a few hours from now she'll be headed off to Arizona, while I'm headed to El Paso. But I'll be meeting up with her in Arizona either late on Monday night or on Tuesday before the Smackdown tapings, so we'll only be apart a couple of days.

But right now I think I shall go and crawl back into bed and take advantage of those few hours I still have with her. *smiles*

3 comments|comment on this

GIP [21 Apr 2004|08:23am]
[ mood | nervous ]

Because I'm quite proud of myself for this one. *grins*

And now I'd better go and get ready as Nora and I are heading back to her place soon to get her packed up .. and apparently her parents and brothers were keen to meet the new guy, so they'll be there too. Let's hope I make a good impression. *laughs*

*smiles* Love you, Nora.

2 comments|comment on this

It's official ... [20 Apr 2004|06:28am]
[ mood | happy ]

I am the happiest man in the world right now. *smiles*

On Thursday night I had just put Jessica to bed and was sitting on the couch quietly watching television, when there came a knock at my door. Apparently Nora had been missing me as much as I had been missing her, so she decided to head to NC and surprise me by arriving on my doorstep. And it was certainly a very pleasant surprise. *smiles*

As we were laying in each other's arms later that night, Nora told me that she felt home was wherever I was. And when she said that, it got me thinking again about something I'd be wanting to ask her for a time. Little did I know she was thinking the exact same thing.

The next day, Nora asked if I wanted to talk about the possibility of her moving in with me. *beams* It took me a whole two seconds to tell her yes, that I'd love nothing more. I love having her here with me, I love going to sleep at night with her wrapped up in my arms, I love waking up in the morning to find her still there, sleeping so peacefully. I love laying on the couch with her while we do something as simple as reading, or when we're with Jess watching movies. The times she has been here in this house, it has truly felt like she belongs here, that she is meant to be here with me, and with Jess. It all feels so right. *smiles*

So after the tapings tonight, I will be heading back to Tampa with Nora to help her get everything packed up and organised for the move. And we'll be enlisting the help of one of her brothers, as we need to get her babies up to my place as well .. and by babies I mean her cars of course. *laughs*

From this moment on it's not just my place anymore ... it's our place. And I truly have never been as happy and as content with life as I am right now.

Now if you'll excuse me, I am off to wake up my beautiful, naughty girl with breakfast in bed again. *grins*

11 comments|comment on this

I hate conflicting schedules ... [12 Apr 2004|11:58am]
[ mood | refreshed ]

But that's the one and only thing I have to complain about right now.

I know that all my entries lately have been gushing about Nora, and how wonderful things are between the two of us. But she is the best part of my life right now, and she's always on my mind, so therefore I can't help talking about her. *smiles*

I loved having her staying with me again last week. Being at home and having her there, waking up in my own bed with her laying in my arms .. call me sentimental, but there was just something extra special about it. *smiles* And I know that Jess loved having her around too. She has grown so fond of Nora, and I love seeing them getting so close and really bonding. It warms my heart just watching the two of them together, truly.

But of course we've hit the road again this weekend. I'm in Indiana right now for a house show tonight, while Nora is in Illinois for Raw. But as I'll still be here tomorrow night, I hope she might fly in tomorrow so we can spend an additional night together before she heads home for a few days.

And I must say I am really looking forward to next weekend, with everyone travelling to Canada for the PPV and other shows. And I'm going to bring Jessica along with me, so I'll get to spend a few days with my two favorite girls in the world. *grins*

Nora, I love you and I miss you.

1 comment|comment on this

Life's a dream .... [08 Apr 2004|09:18am]
[ mood | content ]

And it's a dream I never want to wake up from. I am happier and more content and at peace with myself and with life than I have ever been before. And I have an incredible woman to thank for bringing that happiness into my life.

I convinced Nora to head back with me to North Carolina this week rather than heading home. Okay, it didn't take a lot of convincing. *winks* But I am so glad to have her here with me. It doesn't matter what we're doing, even if it's just lounging together on the couch and reading like we were yesterday afternoon, just her presence fills me with such contentment.

Last night when we were sitting down watching a movie, I had Nora curled up on one side of me, and Jessica on the other. As I looked back and forth between them both, in that moment, I can't describe the emotion that overcame me, and how truly right it felt.

I'm a lucky man. And I know it.

Nora is heading off today for her spa day with Sharm and Lex. I know how much she's been looking forward to this, and she is always deserving of some pampering. *smiles* I don't really have any plans up until picking up Jess from school, and then I promised her that Dad would take her to do whatever she wanted to do. Let's hope she doesn't have anything too crazy in mind. *laughs*

For now, there's still another hour or so before Nora has to leave to meet the girls, so I'm going to go and take advantage of the time I've still got her all to myself ..

2 comments|comment on this

It's been quiet ... [28 Mar 2004|07:17am]
[ mood | thoughtful ]

... Around here the last couple of days. I guess everyone is enjoying things finally being a little more quiet and settled in terms of work.

I've got to catch a flight back to Florida in a while. I know it would have been easier to just stay down there rather than travelling to Missouri with Nora just for one night, but I didn't want to be seperated from her when I didn't have to be, and when I was well aware we'll be apart now for a couple of days due to our conflicting schedules.

Although I do have a little surprise in mind for her. *smiles*

The only downside right now is that I am really missing Jessica. With the international tour and then heading straight to Florida when I got back, I haven't seen her in over a week. I talked to her on the phone last night, and hearing her say how much she's missing her Dad and really wants me home, it hits straight to the heart. *sighs*

For now, I'm going to go and shower and get packed, and hopefully by then Nora is awake so we can go and get breakfast together before I have to leave.

1 comment|comment on this

May I just say ... [24 Mar 2004|07:17am]
[ mood | content ]

It's still too early to be out of bed. *laughs* But I promised a certain someone that I'd update, and as she's sleeping soundly right now I thought it would be a good time to jump online and write a little something.

First before I forget, happy birthday Mark. Hope you have a good one.

It's been a hectic few weeks, to say the least, with all the lead up to Wrestlemania, and then heading straight off to the UK afterwards. But the tour was a definite success, the English fans are great, really passionate about it all, so it was a pleasure to be over there. Not all the officials made the trek over, so I ended up refereeing two or three matches each night, but I've done that many times in the past so it wasn't too bad.

I was feeling a little jetlagged and tired by the time I made my way to Detroit on Monday night, but I got a note instructing me to head straight back to the hotel, where Nora proceeded to give me a welcome home that I won't soon forget. *grins*

I'll be flying back to Florida with Nora this afternoon to spend a few days with her before we both have to get back to work. It's proven to be good timing, as the Smackdown house show happens to be in Florida on Sunday night, although the two Raw shows will be in Missouri so I'll either have to travel back and forth, or be seperated from Nora over the weekend. I know I'll definitely be away from her Sunday and Monday night at least, as our schedules are conflicting, but Raw and SD are both in Ohio this week, so at least we know that we'll get some more time together.

I have to admit, on a personal level I was hoping that Nora might end up being drafted to Smackdown. But I know that Raw is the better place for her career wise, and I know how badly she wants to go after that title again. And I have an additional reason for wanting her to get that belt back now too. *winks* But truthfully, her career is important to me too, because I know how important it is to her, and I know that she has the same love for this business that I do. So I want her to be successful and happy all at the same time. And I know, I'm such a sap. *laughs softly*

And I am also now rambling here, so I'm going to go and try and get some room service ordered and wake up sleeping beauty. *smiles*

3 comments|comment on this

Okay, I admit it ... [16 Mar 2004|04:33pm]
[ mood | thoughtful ]

I was shocked. I didn't expect that they'd legitimately ask Nora to shave her head, and I really didn't expect that she'd agree to do it. Not many people would have had the courage to do something like that, but she has more guts than anyone I know, so I guess I shouldn't be surprised. I said I was going to be proud of her no matter what, but honestly, I am more proud of her than I ever could have imagined.

She came backstage on Sunday night and I did attempt not to look completely shocked. It took a little getting used to, but already I barely even notice. I look at her and I see one thing, I see Nora, the woman I love. And she is still the most beautiful woman in the world to me. *smiles*

I know I wasn't wrestling, but I still got goosebumps walking down to the ring before the Cruiserweight match. And it's always a privledge getting to watch those talented guys go at it in the ring, so I enjoyed every second of it.

I've still got Jessica here with me, she wanted to come to the taping tonight so she can see me working again, and she wants to spend more time with Nora because she knows we're heading home tomorrow. She said that at school on Thursday she's going to tell everyone about her trip to New York City, and how proud she was seeing Daddy and his girlfriend being a part of Wrestlemania.

I have become so used to having Nora right here with me, we've been able to spend almost every day and night with each other for over a week now, which I think is the longest we've managed since being together. It's going to be hard having to say goodbye to her at the airport tomorrow, and as time goes on it's getting harder to be separated from her. *sighs*

Right now, I guess I had better go and find my girls and start thinking about heading to the arena.

3 comments|comment on this

*collapses* [12 Mar 2004|07:58pm]
[ mood | content ]

I'm officially exhausted.

I arrived in New York just before lunch yesterday with Jessica, and I swear she was literally bouncing as we stepped off the plane. *laughs* Nora came to meet us at the airport, and after dropping the bags off at the hotel we went and grabbed a bite to eat. We then took Jess to the Museum of Natural History, giving me the excuse to say this trip was educational and feel like less of a bad father for dragging her out of school a couple of days early. *laughs*

Today the girls wanted to go and do the shopping thing, so I went and met up with Eric and John to grab a coffee and catch up. I tell you, I think those two look happier together everytime I see them. But I do understand how it feels to be happy and blissfully in love. *smiles*

I then got a call from Nora telling me she and Jess were heading to F.A.O. Schwartz, so I went to meet them there. Yes, I'm still a big kid at heart, I admit it. I ended up buying a giant teddy bear for Jess, and an elephant for Nora to add to her growing stuffed animal collection.

We only got back to the hotel around a half hour ago. But I think the excitement and the long days have finally taken their toll on Jess, she fell asleep in the cab on the way back and hasn't moved a muscle since I carried her upstairs and put her to bed.

Nora has been a little quiet the last hour or so, and I know that her mind is on Sunday, and she's getting nervous about her match. I understand why she's feeling the jitters right now, but I know without a doubt that she and Lisa Marie are going to go out there and put on an amazing match. I'll be right there backstage to give Nora a kiss for good luck before she goes out, and to be there when she comes back through that curtain after the match. And no matter what the result, I am more proud of her than I can ever say.

Nora, I love you.

3 comments|comment on this

You know ... [04 Mar 2004|07:17am]
[ mood | loved ]

It's quite easy to get used to having a beautiful woman sleeping in your bed with you every night. *grins*

Nora decided to come back to North Carolina and spend a few days here with Jessica and I, and I have loved every second of having her here. I missed her so much while I was away, and with our conflicting schedules we need to take advantage of times like this when we get to spend time together.

And Jessica, she just amazes me more and more with each passing day. She's been through so much in her young life, she's lost her mother and she has to deal with me being away for days at a time, yet she's such a positive kid, always with a smile on her face. My little girl makes me so proud, she really does. *smiles softly*

And she absolutely adores Nora. When we arrived back here on Tuesday I think Nora received a bigger hug than I did. *laughs* But it means the world to me to see the two of them getting along so well. They are the two most important girls in my life, after all. *smiles*

Speaking of my little girl, she's just wandered out and is wanting me to go and make her breakfast, so I'd better get moving. Maybe I can deliver breakfast in bed to a certain sleeping beauty while I'm at it. *winks*

8 comments|comment on this

Woke up bright and early ... [28 Feb 2004|06:40am]
[ mood | awake ]

And rather than tossing and turning in bed for another hour I thought I'd take a moment to switch on the laptop and make a quick update.

The tour is going brilliantly so far. The shows have been going great, the fans are great, and all the guys seem to be really enjoying themselves. International tours are always such an amazing experience, getting to meet a whole new lot of fans, seeing how we're received in entirely different countries.

This is the first time I've had the chance to visit South Africa, and it's truly a beautiful country. Still, I can't help wishing I had a certain someone by my side to share the experience with me.

Nora, I'm missing you so much. I can't wait to see you on Tuesday, and have you back in my arms again. *smiles softly* I love you.

Anyway, I'm going to go and grab myself some breakfast and then hit the gym, maybe see if any of the guys want to go and do the tourist thing today.

Oh and baby, I already got your present. *grins*

3 comments|comment on this

It's official ... [22 Feb 2004|05:38pm]
[ mood | loved ]

... You won't be wiping this smile off my face anytime in the near future.

When Nora found out she was working this weekend, I immediately flew out to join her so we could spend a couple of days together. I had to leave and head to Missouri this afternoon as I'm working myself tonight, but I'll be rejoining her first thing tomorrow so we can spend as much time as possible with each other before I head off for the overseas tour this week.

They say that sometimes what you're searching for is right in front of your eyes. I never really gave much thought to that, but now I know it's true. Nora and I have known each other for years, but it's only in these last two weeks that we've seen something in each other we never saw before.

That first night, on our first date, we were talking and she reached over and took my hand. It was such a simple action, and it might seem strange, but in that moment I realized I could easily fall in love with this woman.

And I have.

When she said those three little words to me last night, the look I saw in her eyes, it truly overwhelmed me. And I had no hesitation in speaking those same words back to her, because there's no doubting what I feel in my heart.

I love you, Nora.

1 comment|comment on this

I can't stop smiling ... [18 Feb 2004|09:51pm]
[ mood | happy ]

As anyone who has seen me in the past week probably would have noticed. *laughs*

I'm happy. Things with Nora are developing, and it's all just really wonderful right now. *smiles* I've had feelings for her for a long time now, but I never thought she could feel the same way, so I never said anything. But it's safe to say I am really glad I finally got the courage up to ask her out on that first date.

She got to meet Jessica on the weekend while she was here, and I was so glad to see them getting along so well, it really means a lot to me. And I know that she definately left an impression, because the moment that I got home today I had Jessica asking me "Daddy, where's Nora?" *laughs*

Speaking of, thank you again Nora for this new icon. I adore it.

And yes, I'm a gushing fool right now, I'm sorry. *blushes*

13 comments|comment on this

When you least expect it ... [14 Feb 2004|11:53pm]
[ mood | thoughtful ]

If you'd asked me a few weeks ago if I'd be looking forward to Valentine's Day this year, I would have said not a chance. My last memory of Valentine's Day was two years ago, spent with Amy, a mere two months before she passed away.

She was my wife, I loved her more than words can say. Her and Jessica were my world, and I would have lay down my life if it meant keeping them safe. But I couldn't protect Amy from the cancer that struck her down a mere two months into our marriage. And for reasons I still don't understand, she was taken from me, taken from our daughter.

But she lives on. She lives on in my heart, in my memories. And I see her everytime I look into Jessica's eyes. She will always be a part of both of us.

I was never certain whether I'd be able to love again. Whether I'd ever stop being afraid to open up my heart to someone again for fear of losing them. But as each day has passed, I've grown a little stronger, and I believe now more than ever that I will be able to find that again, that I'll be able to find someone to love.

I know it's too soon to make any bold declarations here, but I do know one thing for certain, I have found someone that I truly care about. And thanks to her paying me a visit this weekend, Valentine's Day this year turned out to be a memorable one after all.

Thank you, Nora. For everything. *smiles softly*

1 comment|comment on this

Just want to say ... [11 Feb 2004|07:20pm]
[ mood | happy ]

For the first time in a while, I am truly happy. I'm feeling good about myself, which has been rare over these last couple of months. I'm enjoying my work as much as ever, the move to Smackdown has proved to be a good thing, I think that change was just what was needed for me.

But I am going to miss refereeing those women's matches on Raw. *winks*

After the show on Monday night, I had the pleasure of taking Nora out on a date. We had a couple of drinks in the bar at the hotel, and had some really good conversation .. as she said, we've known each other for a long time, since back when she first came to WCW, but for whatever reason we'd never really gotten to know each other on much more than a professional level.

She really is a wonderful person, I enjoyed spending that time with her, and I think overall we had a very memorable first date. I hope that we can arrange a second sometime soon. *smiles*

And before it slips my mind, a belated happy birthday to angelic_psycho. Hope you had a wonderful day, Lisa.

3 comments|comment on this

Anything can happen .... [31 Jan 2004|10:37am]
[ mood | indescribable ]

No, your eyes weren't deceiving you. I was refereeing the Cruiserweight match between Jamie and Rey on Smackdown. Yes, Smackdown.

It was a fair trade wasn't it? Me for Chris? *laughs*

In all seriousness, the move came about after Mike was unfortunately let go a couple of weeks ago, and they decided they wanted another senior referee over on Smackdown, so I got the call up. It's a little different, but I think a change is something I needed right now, so I'm looking forward to seeing how it goes.

Before I forget .. welcome to Eddie, Kevin and Scott.

And now I'm out of here, going to enjoy the day off today before heading to Pennsylvania tomorrow. And if anyone wants to catch up after the show, maybe go and grab a few quiet drinks or something, give me a call.

3 comments|comment on this

[ viewing | most recent entries ]
[ go | earlier ]